From Here On Out....

Today I get to go home for a whole month. This year, as many of you know, I moved to Chicago for school. I really love Chicago, and plan on staying here for quite a while, but I have learned so much in the few months that I have been here. I understand that coming to college, and moving out of your house is a big deal just by itself, but throughout this semester there have been some things that have happened that have really forced me to grow. First, the transition to college. I was ready to move out of my house, but I guess it made me realize how much I really loved home. Home has a peacefulness to it. I also have grown to appreciate my family so much more than I ever have before. Being away from them made me realize that even though my family may be far from normal, I love them so much! I wouldn't trade them for anything. I also realized that best friends will always be your best friends. There is one friend in particular, and she knows who she is, she is just the girl that I am gonna always call my best friend, she is the girl that no matter wherever we both go in life, we will always call each other best friends. There is so much beauty and awesomeness, if you will, in having a best friend. As many of you probably know, my grandma died this year which has forced me to look at life differently. It has made me realize that first, family is forever. Second, life is short, live it up, have a blast! Third, dying isn't something that you should be afraid of ever. Fourth, life will go on. Even though you may be enduring the worst part of your life, you will make it through. Another thing that I have learned at school, or rather, something that has become more real and personal for me is my relationship between music. Music is something I love. I couldn't live without it, music is a part of me. While I was here I realized that I was to afraid to write my own, and I realized how much of a cop out that that was. I think, that while writing music, you are the most truthful you will ever be, and that is scary to open up that part of you to someone or the world. But, as much as it is scary, it is a cop out. I have been really inspired to write my own music and sing it to the world. One thing that I didn't really enjoy discovering here, was the fact that high school drama doesn't leave you, it will always land in your lap no matter where you go or who you are with. I have also learned that settling isn't a smart thing to do in any situation. We are all beautiful people whether we want to admit it or not, and no one should have to settle for less than beautiful. I have also learned that time, we always think we have so little of it, and it's not that we have so little of it, we just don't use our time wisely. the end for today. some more ponderings are to come.